Well, I was really hoping to be able to deliver some good news this week....but, that is not the case. Oh well, maybe soon.
On another note, Landon is really taking off now with his walking. The past couple of days he has really "wowed" me with his walking. Maybe when I was younger and had Austin and Gage, I possibly was too immature to really be amazed and/or enjoy the moment like I do now. I wish I could have been a more mature mother back then, but you only learn through experience and time. I was only 17 when I became pregnant with Austin, and only 19 when I had Gage. So I was just a baby myself. How could I have possibly appreciate anything, or even begin to understand the value of life and the time that we have in this short life at such a young age? Through the years I have learned so much, about kids, life, family, and what I really want my life to be. I want to enjoy every minute I have with my husband and kids, because you never know which minute could be your last.
My oldest son, Austin, began driver's ed today... DRIVER'S ED?!?!?!? REALLY?!?!?! Wow, time flies, I feel so old having a child old enough to even begin to think about driving. The thought of it terrifies me, really. I mean, I know he has to grow up, just as we all do....but can we not delay it at least a couple more years? I need a law to suddenly be passed that children have to wait until they are 18 to drive or something. Otherwise, I see many more restless nights, and many more gray hairs in my near future. My mom is always joking with me, she tells me within the next five years she is going to build me a "rubber room." When I say why, she tells me "your going to have one child going off to college, one getting his driver's license, and one starting kindergarten, all at the same time." Wow, what a thought! It's a scary thought, but I wouldn't change a thing.
Often, people ask me "why in the world would you come this far with your 2 boys, and then go and start all over again?" And I say "why not?" At least this way I will not have an empty nest, well at least for a while. I cannot imagine my life without this little detour that Jason and I decided to take. Landon is a blessing, everyday. I find myself savoring the little moments, things that before I admit I took for granted with the boys. I notice when Landon hugs me, or kisses me, waves, or giggles that I stop and really breathe him in. I know from experience that time pauses for no one. Every moment counts. Maybe that is why I was blessed with this journey, maybe that is God's purpose for giving us this beautiful little miracle. It was my turn to learn, I needed to be shown the true meaning of life, and how to appreciate what I am given. I feel so blessed to have my beautiful family. I have a wonderful husband, and three amazing children that continue to fill my life with beauty everyday.
I love you: Jason, Austin, Gage, & Landon
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